A Brief Ramble: Breaking Up with Motivation

 

Hey, motivation! Yeah…I’m talking to you.  I am officially breaking up with you.  As the old saying goes, “it’s not me, it’s you.”

After years of waiting upon you to bless me with the gumption to achieve my goals, I’ve realized that I’ve been waiting in vain.  A sad truth has FINALLY penetrated my thick skull:  you, motivation, are no friend of mine. You are fickle, you are fleeting, and you are unreliable.

You’d think I’d have figured this out sooner, however, I suspect dealing with depression may have clouded my logic.  Things become a bit hazy as you try to distinguish a lack of motivation rooted in depression from one that is simply the same everyday lack of motivation we all experience from time to time.

I always assumed (quite wrongly) that if I wasn’t feeling motivated, then I should wait until motivation struck again. I thought that if I was truly serious about my goals, motivation would always have my back and carry me onward to success.  This is skewed thinking at its best. The truth is, if I want to achieve my goals, then I need to put nose to the proverbial grindstone and just get on with it, regardless of how I feel.

Motivation is  a great gift when it makes an appearance, but it pays to be wary; much like that two-faced friend we all had in high school, motivation will look you right in the eyeballs and tell you how pretty and awesome you are and then, as soon as your back is turned, gleefully laugh at your gullibility.

Undoubtedly, there will be a period of adjustment as I try to end my dependence upon motivation.  Even so, I will do my best to avoid its stale waiting room of shattered dreams and instead move into the less fickle realm of good ol’ determination. In the meantime, there’s always coffee.

 

A previous pondering on motivation: https://hattievents.com/2016/02/10/motivation/


Monday’s Mental Health Moment

This is the second time I’ve started this post.  As usual, my first attempt was an excessively wordy explanation of this new series and to quote a former coworker of mine, “ain’t nobody got time for that!”

Here’s the skinny, the scoop, the dope (trying desperately to revive 40’s/50’s slang): During the past few months, I have struggled with an increased level of depression, melancholy (breaking out the 1800’s terminology), and, of course, the accompanying lack of motivation and energy.  I want to know – what gives? (Okay, I’ll stop now.)

In my opinion, one of the best ways to figure out what’s going on, is to take notes or journal. Not only does this help remove some of the mental fog depression creates, it can also help identify certain patterns and common threads that may be feeding depression.  I already have a few suspects in mind, and I want to reveal the culprits so they’re no longer lurking in the dark.

Also, I hope that perhaps airing my own dirty depression laundry, will help others understand that they are not alone and that depression is nothing to be ashamed of. Or, perhaps it will provide some insight for those who do not suffer from depression but know someone who does.  Read More