It’s been a while. My lack of posts reflects how I’m feeling about blogging at the moment – uninspired…unmotivated…uninterested. Every week I think, “I really need to post something, anything, just to keep going,” but, alas, here my blog sits…empty, ignored, sad and alone (cue wind noises and the lone tumbling tumbleweed). Rather than battle my motivation or just post random crap for the sake of posting, I have decided to take an extended break from blogging.
For most people, that short, succinct paragraph would be enough to bid farewell and move on; however, if you’ve seen any of my previous posts you have probably deduced that I have a tendency toward the long-winded. Combined with my compulsive need to provide overly-detailed explanations of nearly every decision I make, this means it’s going to take me at least 1200 words to say my farewell. Whether or not you choose to inflict that sort of pain upon yourself is, of course, entirely up to you!
Please remember these are my personal reasons for taking a blogging break. They are a result of my own personality quirks and traits. They are also a reflection of where I am in my life at the moment. Additionally, they are not meant to be excuses or passive “judgments” of blogging in any way, shape or form.
So, now that’s out-of-the-way, let the diatribe begin!
Ten Reasons I’m Breaking Up with Blogging
Lack of Topics
I am struggling for post ideas.
It was cathartic to write about my personal experiences with depression and other mental health issues, but I feel like that ship has sailed. I don’t think there’s much more I can contribute to the subject. Unless you include my frustration with the mental health care profession’s tendency to shove cocktails of multiple prescription pills down your gullet whilst treating psychiatric appointments like cattle calls, I simply can’t think of anything else I need to cover.
Writing about your own past experiences with depression can also be a slippery slope. It obviously requires accessing memories, feelings, and past experiences that you don’t particularly want to keep reliving and I was beginning to feel uncomfortable doing so.
I also feel like I need a change of direction when writing about faith, Christianity, and my own struggles with belief. I noticed the few posts I did write didn’t mention much about the strength, joy, peace, and hope God provides. I would definitely like to focus more on those topics in the future, but I have some studying to do first!
Household projects…laundry…cleaning up after our
zoo cats…distributing medication to senior cats…cleaning up a seemingly never-ending flow of regurgitated Fancy Feast…yard work…groceries…cleaning up after cats…errands…and did I mention cats?
At Home Business
I am still in the early stages of starting my at-home business (i.e. zero clients). I need to devote what little brain power I have left to marketing and “spreading the word” about the business if I ever hope to get it off the ground. It may flop miserably, but I’ll never know unless I give it whatever bit of focus and motivation I’ve got at my disposal.
Too Much Internet
I already spend too much time on the internet. Instead of doing something productive, like reading my Bible, finishing one of the umpteen books I’ve started, or finally starting those small home improvement projects staring me in the face, I retreat to the internet for hours on end and then feel guilty once I realize how many hours I’ve spent wasting my brain on mindless, useless garbage. That needs to stop. At the moment, I am so frustrated with myself that I think I should go totally off grid!
Guilt and more Guilt
Because “I am what I am,” inevitably guilt will rear its ugly head whenever I neglect any sort of project whether personal or business – blogging is no exception. In fact, the blog guilt has already taken root. Rather than inviting yet another source of guilt into my life, it is better for me to formally bid adieu to my blog and not leave it unattended and languishing in the cold, lonely ether until I’m ready to start posting again. I’m afraid I’m just not wired that way.
The Internet is Grossing Me Out at the Moment
Political arguing (not debating – arguing), hate from both sides of the moral issues, trolls hiding behind their keyboards, preachy, hypocritical Hollywood celebrities and the YouTube famous telling me to just be myself (with the unspoken condition that “being myself” doesn’t offend their liberal, “tolerant” [haha] sensibilities), consumerism gone rampant, etc., I think it’s fair to say the internet is just nasty sometimes. The internet will always be an ugly beast in some respects and I know – if I don’t like it, I don’t have to look at it. Well, I am working on looking at it much less.
Throughout my two years of self-imposed unemployment and from briefly dipping my toe into the blogosphere, I have learned my mind has limited focus. I am not one of those “superwomen” who has an endless amount of energy, motivation and focus that allows her manage the household, complete cute crafting projects, cook a weeks worth of healthy meals in one night, look after the children, blog, maintain a YouTube channel and still hold down a full-time job! Kudos to those superwomen who do it all! I wish I were that energetic and motivated but I’m just not. I work with a limited amount of energy, focus, and motivation and that is okay. I am learning to function around my own resources so that I can set myself up for success instead of feeling like a failure by trying to live up to someone else’s achievements.
Stop Seeking Online Validation
I’ve realized that blogging, YouTube, and other social media platforms were all becoming yet another avenue through which I was seeking approval and validation from others. I often found myself obsessively checking the success rate of a post, comment, or photo – feeling almost euphoric when the likes came in and crushed when there was no activity on my posting efforts.
Again, for me personally, this is not a healthy place to be. I am trying to get away from the need for approval and validation from others and, at least for the moment, social media platforms interfere with that goal.
Returning to Work
Despite the many “How I Make $10,000 a Month Blogging!” articles I’ve run across, blogging will never pay the bills for me. My blog just isn’t that kind of blog. This means that if my home business doesn’t pan out, I may be returning to work in the next year or two. Should that happen, I am sure blogging will probably be the last thing I want to do during my free time. (I’ll need time to recover from the increased amounts of “peopling” I’ll have to engage in!)
For several months now, I’ve been prattling on about how I need to stop focusing so much on myself and start focusing on helping others. Blogging doesn’t interfere much with this goal, but because I often stray into mindless surfing when I reach a writing impasse, it is related. Again, it’s about NOT retreating into that comfortable electronic world of meaningless garbage but actually getting out in the real world and living life.
So there you have it. My rather long list of reasons why I am breaking from blogging. I will probably continue to write for myself, but I may return to old school pen and paper. I also plan to devote more time to Bible study and, should I ever start another blog, it will more than likely focus solely on faith and Christianity only from a more positive perspective.
I would like to thank each of you who has taken the time to read, comment, and subscribe to this blog. I appreciate it so very much. I wish you the greatest success and joy with your own writing/blogging goals.